Memory is a strange thing. You sometimes remember what is best forgotten and forget what needs to be remembered. While at work several times, I cannot recall something that I read may be a year ago and need right now. I will have to spend a whole day reading some textbook to brush up small concepts. However I do clearly remember more often than not people or events that I do not want to remember. It is also funny to track triggers to memory. I am sitting thinking about something innocent enough and then the thoughts start slipping, going from one event to the other in the past, people to people and sometimes reach memories I do not want to visit back.
I wish I had more control on my memory. I wish I could be like history. Remembering things that go well with today. But may be then I would not be me ....
Friday, January 20, 2006
Sunday, January 15, 2006
Life
In the recent past my outlook on life has been changing a lot. One day I find it funny, the other day ironical and what not. I have had a lof of mood swings, had some really terrible days and have seen a lot changing around me. Still, I probably have come to believe more in life than i did before. If I look at the events in the past, it is almost funny that I sometimes feel that this is the worst that can happen to me and yet after some days I am almost over it. Life goes on and you have to let it be that way. You can really not fight it. You think you can but you are just fighting with yourself and you cannot win against yourself. I have finally come to appreciate this aspect of life although I have come to appreciate it the hard way.
Whenever I look at the past, all the events that I thought brought my life to a standstill for days or even months sometimes seem to be so trivial. Does it mean that nothing mattered. I think it did; probably a lot sometimes but then life goes on. Things that you never wanted to change did change and many a times for bad. What i find funny these days is that whenever I am going through a bad time in my life now I feel that after some days I will be over it. I have somehow started feeling that nothing is so big that I cannot do without it. On the downside I do not try many new things because I feel that if I can do without things I thought I can never do without, why do I anyway need anything new. Funny ways the mind works for and against you ....
Whenever I look at the past, all the events that I thought brought my life to a standstill for days or even months sometimes seem to be so trivial. Does it mean that nothing mattered. I think it did; probably a lot sometimes but then life goes on. Things that you never wanted to change did change and many a times for bad. What i find funny these days is that whenever I am going through a bad time in my life now I feel that after some days I will be over it. I have somehow started feeling that nothing is so big that I cannot do without it. On the downside I do not try many new things because I feel that if I can do without things I thought I can never do without, why do I anyway need anything new. Funny ways the mind works for and against you ....
Wednesday, January 04, 2006
Another random test
| Global Personality Test Results |
| Stability (40%) moderately low which suggests you are worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious. Orderliness (56%) moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly organized, reliable, neat, and hard working at the expense of flexibility, efficiency, spontaneity, and fun. Extraversion (63%) moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting at the expense of developing your own individual interests and internally based identity. |
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