Life

In the recent past my outlook on life has been changing a lot. One day I find it funny, the other day ironical and what not. I have had a lof of mood swings, had some really terrible days and have seen a lot changing around me. Still, I probably have come to believe more in life than i did before. If I look at the events in the past, it is almost funny that I sometimes feel that this is the worst that can happen to me and yet after some days I am almost over it. Life goes on and you have to let it be that way. You can really not fight it. You think you can but you are just fighting with yourself and you cannot win against yourself. I have finally come to appreciate this aspect of life although I have come to appreciate it the hard way.

Whenever I look at the past, all the events that I thought brought my life to a standstill for days or even months sometimes seem to be so trivial. Does it mean that nothing mattered. I think it did; probably a lot sometimes but then life goes on. Things that you never wanted to change did change and many a times for bad. What i find funny these days is that whenever I am going through a bad time in my life now I feel that after some days I will be over it. I have somehow started feeling that nothing is so big that I cannot do without it. On the downside I do not try many new things because I feel that if I can do without things I thought I can never do without, why do I anyway need anything new. Funny ways the mind works for and against you ....