I remember that in my school I used to have a big crush on a girl. She was in my class and I would talk to her sometimes. I had just got a new phone connection at home and I would dial her number with shaking hands and say something with trembling voice sometimes to her. I really remember how happy that it-means-nothing would make me. Today I really miss that time. I could never tell that girl what I felt for her .... May be I did not feel much .. it was most likely an infatuation ... nevertheless just the sight of that girl or her voice would make my day. High on hopes and dreams ...
I really miss that time now. I have the courage to go and ask a girl out but I do not have that hope ... that foolishness some people may call it. Blame it on the previous relationships or call it maturity or practical viewpoint .... I find myself having very little faith on things such as love and unconditional love especially. I find people making very sensible choices about love and marriages. Thinking about social structure of their family, caste, job and a thousand other factors when breaking old relationships or making new ones. I see that in friends and may be in me too. I am not blaming anyone. This is not an attempt at insinuation. May be that is the way to go about "such" things in life. May be we are not kids any more. May be things are not that simple as I think they are ....
But I really miss that time ........
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That was a nice post, I could quite relate to it. But I wonder if it is a growing up part or it is because of the fact that world is getting more individualistic.
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